Zoo Negara

remember this?

yes people, I went to Zoo Negara after years of that Aquaria post.

now, did I have a good time there? oh yeah, for sure! that was simply the best date ever. i love it so much.

so, we have been in pandemic for 2 years now. we all have been staying home for so long, not socializing with other people (well, i'm not complaining about this huhu), not seeing the outside world for a wee bit too long, right? so, as soon as Selangor/KL entered Phase 3, i think, of the lockdown, i told Hafiz (gonna call him Hafiz from now on :P) i wanted to go to Zoo Negara. like every minute i got, i told him i want to go there. 

then, here comes the day. i was so excited. but, boy, did i not expecting the crowd? i read that there's gonna be a lot of people, so we brought the tickets online, expecting we will be going in faster. nope. we queued for some time, to get the pass, despite already buying the tickets in advance. once we entered, I.WAS.SO.HAPPY. 

animals are everywhere, well the humans are too. there was so many people at one point it started to feel scary...? the crowds was so overwhelming, so many people. as if there's nothing going on right now. but, i can't complain, i was there too. but, you get me. right? lol

Hafiz was almost made the day short and spoiled everything. he really almost did. i was so annoyed with him, i feel like wanting to go home upon 5 mins in. that's how annoyed i was. haha. thank god i didn't because i had the most fun there :'( *cries

i feel like the zoo was well maintained, the place is clean. but, not sure about the animals tho. i feel like, they are, okay...? hahah because i enjoyed looking at them, and none looked like they're about to die lolol. so i guess they are quite fine, in case you are wondering. because my friend asked me if the animals was okay. so i'm just gonna put it here, i think, the animals are fine and healthy.

i really really enjoyed the cats family section. cats, as in, lions, tigers, cheetahs, etc. THEY.ARE.DAMN.CUTE. i can watch them all day. just be there and look at them :') ahh luvsss. 

but not the cheetahs tho. haha one of them was really rude haha. it literally poo-ed in front of us. hahaha. all the visitors was looking at it, i'm gonna named it-Rudy-since he's rude, and Rudy came to us and like looking at us, as if he's enjoying the attention he was given. but, little did we know that he was going to take a shit. i was recording him and asked Hafiz to took a picture of me with the rude Rudy, and he posed, just like how cats wanted to poo. rude.

not the white tiger tho :') and the Harimau Malaya as well. aaaaa soooo cute i was so swooned by them. luv it so much *chef's kiss. 

i know, most people really love watching the panda, i do too. but, there are time limit to watch the panda. and it's in a closed space. imagine the crowd, and a closed space, nope. too scary for me. i watched for a while, then people started to get super close to us, we decided to just take a few pictures, watch the pandas for about a minute, literally, and go out.

it was a very tiring day. my feet almost gave up on me. i was so tired. but, above all, we had a very good time. everything was so relaxing, well the walking part is not, but aaa so happy. to many more happy dates in the future and so thankful you actually make time to bring me there. hikss

love,

Fyfaa

We are all adults now.

My sweetest bestfriend, Aqielah is flying to UK on 14th September. So, my high school gang and I decided to catch up with her, do a little surprise for her. We planned to go for a dinner on Monday, 24th of August. Then, Farah is going into the labour, so we decided to delay the plan and planned again to go on a dinner on 27th of August, on my birthday. Then, on that day, it was kinda hectic for everyone. haha. Dayang forgets that we have planned to meet on that day and that she was 'selekeh' according to her. Then, Qeyla asked if we could make the dinner early, around 6-7. But, Dayang and Ana worked on that day, so it was quite hard for them to make it there by 6-7. Dayang laid out a few options for up to choose and thus we decided to meet her on Saturday, 29th August. 

It was a very good catch up session we had. We talked and ate and then Fasha and Ana surprised Dayang, Qeyla and I with cakes. The restaurant had a birthday song played and I was confused and played along. I thought it was someone else's birthday, so we just clapped along. Then the waiter came to us and gave us the cakes. It was for the three of us! It was fun and I was touched. I mean, I thought they forgets my birthday. None of them wished me on my birthday. They all knew it was my birthday. We were discussing on Qeyla's farewell dinner on my birthday. They knew! But, none really wished me. Semua wish I when it was towards the end of my birthday. But, I don't really care haha. So, when they had some cakes for us, I was like, awww thankss haha 😎

Dayang gets emotional when we were eating the cakes. It was for Qeyla as well. Knowing that we can't see her for a year really making us sad. Its not like we never gone through a year without meeting with everyone. When all of us were still in Uni, we barely can make time for each other. The longest we've gone through without meeting each other was like, 2 years I think. So, for a year, it is short actually. But, maybe because she'll be on the other side of the world. Ahh, now I'm getting emotional :'( and so suddenly, all of us gets teary eyes. And then, Fasha made some speech about how we all are growing up and now that we are like working towards achieving our own goals in life. How we can barely make time for each other considering the commitments we have commit. It was all gloomy for a moment there. I remembered Fasha's post on Instagram for all of us not to get so busy in college, but I guess, life catches up and we couldn't help but to be busy. I am happy seeing my friends live the life they're in today. 

I turned 24, a few weeks ago and it was the easiest birthday I have ever dealt with. On my previous birthday post, I did mention how I get anxious everytime my birthday comes. I really hate it. I felt lonely and unloved. So, last year, I felt very happy and content the whole day. Well, this year, considering how miserable my life has been since earlier this year, and I have been in the craziest phase of my life, I thought I would feel the same way like I did for several years prior. 

But, I have never been so good?! I took a day leave on that day. Woke up to my mom opening my door and wished me happy birthday. I finished making my Koko Jar orders in the morning (visit @lildesserts on Instagram to know more hehe) and went out for a dinner with my boy. We had a really good time. It was a short dinner. He picked me up at my house. Opened the car door to a bouquet of tulips. Then he told me my mom made him buy me a slice of cake and chocolates. Stopped by the lake and finished the cake. Went to Super Saigon and had a dinner there. Took some pictures with my flowers hehe. Then we head home. Like I said, short dinner. Nothing fancy, but my heart was so full and I am so happy. I used "harini-birthday-along" card to my siblings every time I need them to do something for me the whole day >.< and they don't complain haha. I'm not sure is it because I am a big girl already or that, I came to terms that birthday is just a normal day but with a hint of extra extra to it. I am happy that I am able to feel happy because I'm quite afraid that I'll feel sad hehe.

The thing about growing up is that, we grew distant with people that we were the closest to. But, that's life. Some people stayed and some leave. But that doesn't mean you or them are the toxic one, it's just life happens, and all suddenly, we just don't talk anymore. You know you can always come back to them, when you need to, and everything seems like we never been far from each other. I miss how easy and less complicated my life was, but if we stayed in the same phase for all our life, then, what is growing up? You can't expect people to be the same person he/she was when they were young. The person you knew today, is not the same that you knew yesterday. We are all adults now. So, appreciate each moment you have with the ones you loved. 

And to you, my dearest Aqielah. You have always been the sweetest friend one could ever ask for. You are always so nice and kind to others. I love how considerate you are to others and that you have always brings joy to the people in your life. Have fun in UK okay. We all gonna miss you so much. All the best in what you're doing and I pray that Allah will always keep you safe wherever you go. May Allah bless you always, and luv u, bb. Balik nanti bawak lah boyfriend mat saleeh okie hehe 😝 i love you <3

love, Fyfaa

'They have it better than me'

I really don't know what to write, because I literally have been in my pjs all day long and haven't been outside for almost 2 months now. I don't even know how is the outside world look right now. Lol, I may seems like I am exaggerating, but it's true though haha.

So, how is everyone doing? Good or no good? As for me, there are times I feel so anxious I might just throw up, but some days are good too. I usually feel anxious when I look at other people's life, how composed their life seems to be despite being in this difficult time. I guess, socmed is really a bad place for me right now because I just feel horrible about myself seeing other people's life. Well, I know we can't compare our life with others. We all living in our own pace, but who can stop me really? hiks. It is always so easy to drown into your own hole of self-pity where everyone else seems so much better than you - well, they are - but to bring yourselves back up, I always find that so hard to do. Maybe because I have been anxious all my life. I have been comparing my pathetic life to other people, maybe that's why it is hard for me.

Now that Ramadhan has indeed come again, I really wanted to be best version of myself. I tried to finish 1 juzuk a day, and I have been trying to learn more about the Quran itself. I have been pushing myself so that I have no time to disrespect myself and more time to actually be grateful with every single thing I have. I am grateful, don't get me wrong. I am able to be at home with my whole family. I am able to make my mom cooks for me and the whole fam instead of me, doing it all alone like before hehe. I have so much to be grateful on. But meh, I'm only human. There are times you just feel like everything you have is not enough. Ke I je rasa centu? Lol.

But above it all, I hope that everyone is doing fine and staying safe wherever you are. It is important for all of us to play our role during this pandemic and let's pray that all this will be over soon and we can all create a new normal with the better version of ourselves.

Ramadhan Kareem everyone! May all of you have a blessed Ramadhan and may all our deeds are accepted by the Mighty Allah. Amiin.

love,
Fyfaa